Confused...

It's been a while since I've felt like writing, I think I just lost motivation.... But now I don't know what to do, I found the perfect person for me, my true love but here is the deal. I'm studying Psychology half way there and he lives in a very far country and basically I have to pick between my true love or my parents and career. But If you don't think that's hard enough I need to do something as soon as possible because I want to help him to pay our new house, our dream house the best thing that could ever happen to us is be together.. 

It's so difficult It's always the money.. because I can't study there because I don't have the money and I can't get a decent job because I dont have my degree and IF I finish here I might not be able to get a decent job anyways there... This might be the hardest choice I have to make in my whole life. I want nothing but to be with him but also I want to feel helpful and be able to do what I love the most but hey, I guess you can't get everything in life, I never thought I would love someone this much and I would be able to leave my family, my country and my career. I wish this could be easier. 

Deep inside my heart I know we will be really happy but right now it's so hard and I don't even know where to start or what to do..  I'll try to write a bit more when I get the chance all I know is I love him...