We've been together for like 4 months or so and it looks to get more serious everyday, but I can't stop the fear, the fear of getting hurt, cheated or left once i given myself completely. The fear that he might not like me when he meet me or stupid things like that, but still I can't take that out of my head..Yet I will If I really want to be with him I must trust, I must believe he is the one, how funny... I never thought about getting married.. but.. He kinda made me think about it.. and I can't help but liking the idea more and more everyday as my love grows.
So far our plans are for instance to meet in april and spend 15 days together here in México, then in june (happens to be my Birthday on the 6th) I will be taking a plane for the first time and stay with him my long holidays It's gonna be like a month or so. I'm really excited because I want to see him, hug him, kiss him and all sort of things... =P. Then I want to know how the things go and see what we will do next.. whether I move there and start all over school or... stay here until I finish that would be like 3 years D: and that's what kinda scares me the most... the time apart.
Anyways.. I want to post a picture of him because I find him beautiful XD
Ugh as any girl I have insecurities XD meh... You know.. no one is perfect specially not me.. so .. What if he doesnt like me in real? ... You know I'm not like the tall, super skinny, blond blue eyed girl.. I'm more like not too tall, not fat.. I cant complain about the shape of my body but well I'm cinnamon skinned and brown eyed. I just hope from the botton of my heart.. this works out. If not well.. Let's not think about that XP I love him and I want him forever. ♥
Here's a song that makes me think about him and the title of this entry is inspired on it
